“Beshak ankh ansoo bahati hai aur dil ghamgeen hai lekin hum zubaan sey wohi kahein gey, jis sey hamara rabb razi ho…” (Prophet Mohammed s.a.w.)
I hardly ever cry when a celebrity dies. Its been a tough year. Deaths of 3 iconic pakistanis and I have cried for all them.
Junaid Jamshed has been the most difficult to accept till now. Its taken need so long to accept that he is no more. That he will not be doing the 12 rabi ul awwal show tomorrow . That he will not be doing live shows during Ramadan . That we will only watch him now on old YouTube videos . That he will not be tweeting his pictures himself ever again. And that there will never be a new nasheed from him.
I feel miserable and helpless right now but his death has reminded me once again how unpredictable life is . The person who was giving azan became merely a ‘laash ‘ an hour later. It gives me a reason to look at myself and thank Allah for the breaths that I’m taking and the chance he is giving me. . . To improve, to forgive , to forget and become a better person .
Junaid Jamshed had always been a part of my life in one way or the other. Growing up, I listened to his songs and did so through out my teen years. I was still listening to humming to ‘o sanama’ When he decided to leave his lucrative music career and put away his guitar and grew his beard. I wasn’t too sure what he was trying to do and I bought his last album too,for which he made any music videos. Soon, he had released another album but this time he wasn’t singing for a mortal beloved, his Beloved was now the immortal Allah. It didn’t take me long before I was listening to jalwa e jaana and falling in love with it. He gave us some of most beautiful naaheeds, the words were simple but were the ones we could all relate to.
People hated him for choosing to be what he became. I couldn’t understand why his decision was not being respected. We don’t have to agree with someone to respect him. We can disagree and still respect each other. However , that is not the case with us. We believe that people don’t change and hence the saying, “900 choohay kha ker billi hajj ko chali” . So pretty much everyone had a problem with him and it seemed all his statements became controversial somehow. He said lots of things that I don’t agree with too but of course I never ill wished him. Lots of people in Pakistan wanted to see him dead however .
And now he actually is dead.
Or is he a shaheed .
Since yesterday , my facebook news feed is filled with his old songs and I have been fighting my urge to listen to them. No, not because I’m claiming to be very pious but because I believe it is up to us, people who claim to be his fans, to respect his decision . He thought his singing career was a mistake and whether we agree with it or not, we must respect his decision . He didn’t want to be remembered as a singer. He wanted to be remembered as someone who chose to follow a path most people would never dare to. Lets remember him for that. Lets remember him for the inspiration that he was and still is.
May his soul rest in peace .